Story #14 – A Long Road to Healing
My mom is a very strong catholic parent
And church on Sunday was very apparent.
A priest was considered a man of God
One who taught you right, wrong and possibly what was odd.
As a child my Dad left me and gave me an empty heart
And this led me to believe my life was falling apart.
When I felt the pain was deep and no one cared
I turned to a priest to keep God very near and dear.
This priest bought me many gifts and eventually gave me a hug
But deep down I didnt realize his motives were only smug.
I became special and what I thought was loved and unique
Only to realize later in life that he only cared for my physique.
He told me I was very special and his only girl
But deep down I started to get confused and wanted to hurl.
As the years go by I learn to please him whenever he wants
But I never told my family or friends because I was in such knots.
I finally came out of the closet and went to my spouse
He told me I was crazy and belonged in a mental house.
My spouse left me because he said what I did was sick and bad
I really thought he would understand but instead he got very mad.
I am still in one hour meetings trying to turn my life around
and my therapist teaches me the priest was way out of bounds.
I decide to take my case to the church as I now realize it was very wrong
This man cant face me and ends his life as he wasnt strong.
I still wonder why he took his own life with a gun
I am very confused and dont understand what he has done.
Everyone is shocked and some say there was never an abuse
And if so why did I wait so long to accuse.
I know everyone thought this man was wonderful and great
And they wouldnt believe me so I had to wait.
All said and done I am left with my therapist, family and one true friend
They believe I am strong and I will carry this with me to the end.
To everyone who believes me and continues to help me heal
I would like to thank you for trying to understand how I really feel.
My mom is still a great person with all the catholic behavior
But to me she has become my one and only very special savior