Hang in there Kenneth - I read what u shared on Members stories... you ain't alone... you will get through the overwhelming bouts of anger... I used my anger to create a monstrous montage called Vomit on the Vatican and put it online for the world to see. Painting and writing help. You can view the Vomit on the Vatican below:
http://maryhedgehog.blogspot.com/2011/10/completed-montage-vomit-on-vatican-by.html